Among human beings a cat is merely a cat; among cats a cat is a
prowling shadow in a jungle.
They called the kitten Tag. They fed him, and he grew. They put a collar
around his neck. They entertained him, and the world began to take on
It was his world, full of novelty yet always reliable, exciting yet
secure. He was a small king; and by the time a week was out, he had
explored every inch of his new kingdom. He liked the kitchen best. It was
warm in there on a cold day, and from the windowsill he could see out into
the garden. In the kitchen they made food, which was easy to get off them.
He had bowls of his own to eat it from. He had a box of clean dirt to
scrat in. The kitchen wasn't entirely comfortable--especially in the
morning, when things went off or went around very loudly without
warning--but elsewhere they had given him a large sofa, covered in dark red
velvet, among the scattered cushions of which he scrabbled and burrowed
and slept. He had brass tubs with plants and some very interesting
fireplaces full of dried flowers, out of which flowed odors damp and sooty.
Up a flight of stairs and into every room, every cupboard and corner! It
was big up there, and full of unattended human things. At first he
wouldn't go on his own but always made one of them accompany him while he
inspected the shelves stuffed with clean linen and dusty books.
"Come on, come on!" he urged them. "Here now! Look, here!" They never
They were too dull.
A further flight up, and it was as if nobody had ever lived there--echoes
on the uncarpeted stairs, gray floorboards and open doors, pale bright
light pouring in through uncurtained windows. Up there, each bare floor
had a smell of its own; each ball of fluff had a personality. If he
listened, he could hear dead spiders contracting behind the woodwork. Left
to himself up there he danced, for reasons he barely understood. It was a
territorial dance, grave yet full of energy. Simply to occupy the space,
perhaps, he leapt and pounced and hurled himself about, then slept in a
pool of sunshine as if someone had switched him off. When he woke, the sun
had moved away, and they were calling him to come and eat more new things.
They called him Tag. He called them dull.
"Come on, dulls!" he urged them. "Come on!"
They had a room where they poured water on themselves. Every morning he
hid outside it and jumped out on the big dull bare feet that passed. Nice
but dull, they were never quick enough or nimble enough to avoid him. They
never learned. They remained shadowy to him--a large smell, cheerful if
meaningless goings-on, a caring face suspended over him like the moon
through the window if he woke afraid. They remained patient, amiable,
easily convinced, less focused than a tin of meat-and-liver dinner. The
dulls were for food or comfort or play. Especially for play. One of his
earliest memories was of chasing soap bubbles. The light of an autumn
evening shifted gently from blue to a deep orange. Up and down the room
rushed Tag, clapping his front paws in the air. He loved the movement. He
loved the heavy warmth of the air. Everything was exciting. Everything was
golden. The iridescence of each bubble was a brand-new world, a brand-new
opportunity. It was like waking up in the morning.
Bubble! Tag thought. Another bubble!
He thought, Chase the bubbles!
As leggy and unsteady, as easily surprised, as easy to tease, as full of
daft energy as every kitten, Tag pursued the bubbles, and the bubbles--each
with its tiny reflected picture of the room in strange, slippery
colors--evaded him smoothly and neatly and then hid among a sheaf of dried
flowers or floated slowly up the chimney or blundered without a care into
a piece of furniture and burst. He heard them burst, in a way a human
being never could, with a sound like tapped porcelain.
Evanescence and infinite renewal!
Any cat who wants to live forever should watch bubbles. Only kittens
should chase them.
Tag would chase anything. But the toy he enjoyed most was a small cloth
mouse with a very energetic odor. It had been bright red to start with.
Now it was rather dirty, and to its original smell had been added that of
floor polish. Tag whacked it around the shiny living room floor. Off it
skidded. Tag skidded after it, scrabbling to keep upright on the tighter
One day he found a real mouse hiding under the Welsh dresser.
A real mouse was a different thing.
Tag could see it, a little pointed black shape against the gray dimness.
He could smell it too, sharp and terrified against the customary smell of
fluff balls and seasoned pine. It knew he was there! It kept very still,
but there was a lick of light off one beady eye, and he could feel the
thoughts racing and racing through its tiny head. All the mouse's fear was
trapped there under the dresser, stretched taut between the two of them
like a wire. Tag vibrated with it. He wanted to chase and pounce. He
wanted to eat the mouse: he didn't want to eat it. He felt powerful and
predatory; he felt bigger than himself. At the same time he was anxious
and frightened--for himself and the mouse. Eating someone was such a big
step. He rather regretted his bravado with the pet shop finches.
He watched the mouse for some time. It watched him. Suddenly, Tag decided
not to change either of their lives. His old cloth mouse had a nicer smell
anyway. He reached in expertly, hooked it out, and walked away with it in
his jaws. "Got you!" he told it. He flung it in the air and caught it.
After a few minutes he had forgotten the real mouse, though it probably
never forgot him--and his dreams were never the same.
That afternoon he took the cloth mouse with him up to the third floor
where he could pat it about in a drench of cool light.
When he got bored with this he jumped up on the windowsill. From up there
he had a view of the gardens stretching away right and left between the
houses. However much he cajoled or bullied them, the dulls never seemed to
understand that he wanted to go out there. It fascinated him. His own
garden had a lawn full of moss and clover that sloped down toward the
house, where a steep rockery gave way to the lichen-stained tiles of the
checkerboard patio. Lime trees overhung the back fence, along which--almost
obscured by colonies of cotoneaster, monbretia, and fuchsia--ran a dark,
narrow path of crazy paving. Cool smells came up from the garden after
rain. Wood pigeons shifted furtively in the branches all endless sunny
afternoon, then burst into loud, aimless cooing. At twilight, the sleepy
liquid call of blackbird and thrush seemed to come from another world; and
the greens of the lawn looked mysterious and unreal. Dawn filled the trees
with squirrels, who chased one another from branch to branch, looting as
they went, while birds quartered the lawn or hopped in circles around the
mossy stone birdbath.
Transfixed with excitement, Tag watched them pull up worms.
That afternoon, a magpie was in blatant possession of the lawn, strutting
around the birdbath and every so often emitting loud and raucous cries. It
was a big, glossy bird, proud of its elegant black-and-white livery and
metallic blue flashes. Tag had seen it before. He hated its bobbing head
and powerful, ugly beak. He hated its flat, ironic eyes. Most of all he
hated the way it seemed to look directly up at him, as if to say, My lawn!
Tag narrowed his eyes. Angry chattering sounds he couldn't control came
from his throat. He jumped off the windowsill, then back up again.
"Wrong!" he said. "Wrong!"
But the bird pretended not to hear him--though he was certain it could--and
unable to bear its smug proprietorial air, Tag sat down, curled his tail
around himself, and closed his eyes. After a while, he fell asleep,
thinking confusedly, My mouse. This seemed to lead him into a dream.
He dreamed that he was under the Welsh dresser, eating something. Somehow,
the dark gap beneath the dresser was big enough for him to enter; he had
followed something in there, and was eating it. The soft parts had a warm,
acrid, salty taste, and he could hardly get them down fast enough. Before
he was able to swallow the tougher bits he had to shear them with the
carnassial teeth at the side of his jaw, breathing heavily through his
mouth as he did so. That was enjoyable too. Just as he was finishing
off--licking his lips, snuffing the dusty floor where it had been in case
he had missed anything--he heard a voice in the dark whisper quite close to
him, "Tag is not your true name."
He whirled around. Nothing. Yet someone was there under the dresser with
him. He could almost feel the heat of its body, the smell of its breath,
the unsettling companionable feel of it. It had quietly watched him eat
and said nothing. Now he felt guilty, angry, afraid. His fur bristled. He
tried to back out from under the dresser, but now everything was the right
size again and he was stuck, squeezed down tight in a dark space that
smelled of wood and dust and blood with a creature he couldn't see. "Tag,"
it whispered. "Listen. Tag is not your true name." He felt that if he
stayed there any longer, it would push its face right into his, touch him
in the dark, tell him something he didn't want to hear ...
"Tag is my name!" he cried, and woke up--to a loud, rapid hammering noise
near his ear. While he slept, the magpie had flown up from the garden. It
was strutting to and fro on the ledge directly outside the window,
screeching and cawing, flapping its wings against the glass, filling the
whole world with its clamor. Now its face was right next to his, and its
chipped, wicked beak was drumming against the glass and it was shouting at
"Call yourself a cat? Call yourself a cat?"
And he fell off the windowsill and hit his head hard on the floor.
Everything went a soft dark brown color, like comforting fur. When he woke
up again, the bird was gone and he could hear the dulls preparing their
food downstairs, and he thought it had all been the same dream.
Tag had lived in the house for two months. It seemed much longer, a great
stretch of time in which he was never unhappy. He never wanted for
anything. He doubled in size. His sleep was sound, his dreams infrequent
and full of kitten things. All that seemed to be changing. Now, as he
curled up on the velvet sofa, he wondered what would happen when he closed
his eyes. Each time he slept, he lived another life--or fragments of it, a
life of which he had no understanding.
In one dream he was walking beneath a sliver of yellow moon, with ragged
clouds high up; he heard the loud roar of some distant animal. In another,
he saw the vague shape of two cats huddled together with heads bowed,
waiting in the pouring rain; they were so hungry and in such trouble that
when he saw them, a grief he could not understand welled up inside him
like a pain. In a third dream, he was standing on a windswept cliff high
above the sea. There were dark gorse bushes under a strange, unreal light.
There was a sense of vast space, the sound of water crashing rhythmically
on rocks below. In the teeth of the wind, Tag heard a voice at his side
say quietly, "I am one who becomes two; I am two who become four; I am
four who become eight; I am one more after that." It was the voice of a
cat. Or was it?
"Tintagel," it said. "Tag! Tag! Listen! Listen to the waves!"
All the dreams were different, but that voice was always the same--quiet,
persuasive, companionable, frightening. It wanted to tell him things. It
wanted him to do things.
All the dreams were strange; but perhaps this was the strangest dream of
He dreamed it was evening, and he was sitting on a windowsill while behind
him in the room, the dulls ate their food, talking and waving their big
arms about. Tag stared out. It was dark. There were clouds high up,
obscuring the waning moon, but the moonlight broke fitfully through.
Something was happening at the very end of the garden. He couldn't quite
see what it was. Every night, he sensed, animals went along the path down
there, entering the garden at one side and leaving at the other. They were
on business of their own, business to enthral a young cat. It was a
highway, with constantly exciting traffic.
In the dream there was an animal out there, but he couldn't see it clearly
or hear it. For a moment the moonlight seemed to resolve it into the shape
of a large black cat--a cat with only one eye. Then it was nothing but a
shadow again. He shifted his feet uneasily. He wanted to be out there; he
didn't want to be out there. Clouds obscured the moon again. He put his
face close to the glass. "Be quiet!" he tried to tell the dulls. "Watch!
As he spoke, the animal out there seemed to see him. He felt its eye on
him. He felt its will begin to engage his own. He thought he heard it
whisper, "I have a task for you, Tag. A great task!"
Behind him in the room, the dulls laughed at something one of them had
said. Tag shook himself, expecting to wake up. But when he looked around,
he was still in that room, and he had never been asleep. As if sensing his
confusion, the female got up and, putting her face close to his as if it
wanted to see exactly what he was seeing, stared out into the darkness. It
shivered. "You don't want to go out there," it said softly. "Cold and
dangerous for a little cat like you. Brrr!" It stroked his head. The purr
rose in Tag's throat. When he turned back to the garden, the one-eyed cat
Early one morning, before the household was awake, Tag saw the sun coming
up, carmine colored, flat and pale with promise. A few shreds of mist hung
about the branches of the lime trees. Soon, three or four sparrows and a
robin had alighted on the lawn and begun hopping about among the fallen
leaves. This was all as it should be. Tag hunched forward to get a better
look. My birds! he thought. But then they flew up suddenly, to be replaced
by his enemy the magpie, who strode on long legs in a rough circle around
the birdbath, shining with health and self-importance. It stopped,
stretched its neck, opened its beak to reveal a short thick purple-gray
tongue, and let forth its abrasive cry.
Oh yes? thought Tag. We'll see about that!
But what could he do? Only jump on and off the windowsill in a fever of
frustration. At last he heard the dulls getting up, and there was
something else to think about. He raced down the stairs and stood by his
bowl in the kitchen.
"Breakfast," he demanded. Chicken and game casserole! "In here. Put it in
this bowl. Breakfast!"
Chicken and game!
That was a smell he would remember later on.
Two minutes after he had got his face into the bowl, one of the dulls
opened the back door without thinking. Tag felt the cool morning air on
his nose. It was full of smells. It was full of opportunity. And the
magpie was still out there, strutting around the lawn as if he owned it.
My lawn! thought Tag. Breakfast later!
And he was out in a flash, straight between a pair of legs, across the
lawn--scattering leaves and hurling himself at the bird, who turned its sly
black head at the last moment, said clearly, "Not this time, sonny," and
flew like an arrow through a hole in the fence, leaving one small white
body feather floating in the air behind it. Tag, enraged, went sprinting
after, his hind feet digging up lawn and flower bed. He heard the dulls
shouting after him. Then he was through the fence and into the garden next
door. The magpie was sitting on a fence, regarding him amusedly from one
beady eye. "Raaark." Off they went again. Every time he thought he had
caught it, the bird only led him farther afield, until, when Tag looked
back at his house, he couldn't see it any more.
He hesitated a moment.
"Call yourself a cat?" sneered the magpie, almost in his ear. "This is
where you belong, out here in the wild world--not a toy cat on a
windowsill!" But when Tag whirled around, ready to renew the chase, it had
vanished into thin air.
Tag sat down and washed himself. He looked around.
New gardens! New gardens that went on forever. Through one and into the
Out! he thought. I got out!
He forgot the magpie. He forgot his home. For the rest of that day he was
as happy as he'd ever been. He explored the new gardens one by one, moving
farther and farther away from the dulls and their house. There were
gardens overgrown with weeds and elder, in which the sun barely struck
through to the earth and the dusty, powerfully smelling roots. There were
gardens so neat they were just like front rooms. There were gardens full
of rusty household objects. Tag had a look at all of them. They were all
interesting. But by late afternoon he had found the garden of his dreams.
It was wilder than his own, a narrow shady cleft between old brick walls,
sagging wooden trellis, and overgrown buddleia bushes, into which reached
long bright fingers of sun. It was full of ancient flowerpots and white
metal garden furniture green with moss. At one side was a bent old damson
tree, its sagging boughs held up by wooden supports; at the other a
well-grown holly. Tag sat in the sun between them, cleaning his fur. A
family of bullfinches piped from the branches of the damson. A bee hummed
past! After it he went, whacking out with his front paws until he could
clutch the stunned insect inside one of them. He put the bee carefully
into his mouth and let it buzz about a bit in there. What a feeling! Then
he swallowed it. "Not bad," he told himself. "Good bee." For a while he
patrolled an old flower bed now overgrown with mint, in case he got
another. After that, he went to sleep. When he woke up, he was hungry. It
was late afternoon, and he had no idea where he was.
Two hours later, he was huddled--hungry, cold, and disoriented--on someone's
back doorstep. Afternoon had given way to evening as he made his way from
garden to garden, recognizing nothing. At first it had seemed like a great
game. Then the fences had got higher and harder to jump, the tangled rose
briars harder to push through, the smells of other cats more threatening.
Human beings had shouted at him through a window--he had run off
thoughtlessly and got turned back on himself, ending up in the garden he
had started from. Now he was so tired he couldn't think. He knew it wasn't
his own house. But he was grateful to sit on the doorstep anyway. He was
grateful for the old damson tree, spreading its branches over the white
garden furniture glowing in the dusk. These things were familiar, at
least. He gave a little yowl now and then, in case someone came home and
let him in.
As he sat there, the light went slowly out of the sky. The sun was a great
cool red ball behind the garden trees. Rooks began to settle their evening
quarrels--"My branch, I think." "No, my branch!"--the whole ragged ignoble
colony of them whirling up into the sky to wheel and caw before settling
again, one by one into silence. Suddenly the air was colder. Shadows crept
out of the box hedges. The garden seemed to change shape, becoming shorter
and broader. The lawn, the shrubs in their borders, the lighted windows of
the houses yellow with warmth and company--everything seemed closer and yet
further away. The apple trees faded to a uniform gray.
Night had come. Tag had never been out in it before.
He knew the night only from warm rooms behind double-glazed windows. Then
it had seemed exciting. Now it was only menacing and strange. As human
activity decreased, the real sounds and smells of the world came through:
the sudden low twitter of a bird disturbed, the slow tarry reek of leaf
mold from under the hedges, the bitter smell of a rusting iron bucket, a
dog barking somewhere down at the end of the road, thickly woven odors of
snails eating their way through the soft fleshy leaves of the hostas. And
then, suddenly, from the gloom at the very end of the garden, came a smell
that made Tag's heart race with fear and excitement! His head went up.
Almost despite himself, he sniffed the air. Something moving down there!
It was a highway, like the one that ran along the bottom of his own
garden! Something was trotting down there, fast and purposeful, its paws
moving silently across the broken, lichenous old flagstones as it made its
way from left to right along the tunnelly overgrown path between the
flower bed and the sagging board fence. Tag could barely keep still. He
wanted to make himself known. He wanted to hide. Every part of him wanted
to say something. Every part of him wanted to stay silent.
In the end, though, he must have moved, or made some sound, because the
animal on the highway stopped. It sniffed the air for him. He heard it.
Terribly afraid, he huddled into the doorway. Too late. It was aware of
him. He could see a dark silhouette, a thick black shadow with four legs
and a blunt muzzle, its head turning this way and that. A single bright,
pale, reflective eye that seemed to switch itself on suddenly, like a
lamp. It was looking at him. There was a long pause. Then a wave of scent,
a sharp, live, musky reek in the garden air.
"Little cat," it said in a soft voice. "Your true name is not Tag. Do you
want to discover your true name? If so, you must undertake the task which
lies before you."
He shrank back in the doorway until his head was pressed so tightly into
the corner his face hurt. To no avail. The thing that inhabited that
shadow could see him whatever he did. There was a low, grunting laugh.
"Don't be afraid," said the voice. "Come with me now."
Its owner took a pace toward him.
He cowered into his doorway.
There was a sudden impatient sigh, as if the creature had been
interrupted. It paused to listen, then, purposeful and urgent, it loped
off into the night without another word.
Tag huddled on the doorstep until it was light again. Exhaustion made him
shake; anxiety kept him awake. Every sound, familiar or not, seemed to
threaten him, from the abrupt shriek of an owl to the patient snuffling
and rootling of a hedgehog in the next garden. He was afraid to make any
noise of his own.
Toward dawn he fell into a restless sleep, only to dream of the animals on
their highway. Tag could never be sure what he saw--what he sensed--moving
along it. They were cats, certainly, although in the dream they seemed
much larger than a cat should be, and they had deeply disturbing, shadowy
shapes. They moved in their own powerful stink--vague, slippery,
indistinct, always angry or excited. Their voices came toward him from a
long distance, in the echoing yet glutinous speech of dreams.
"A task," they told him, "a great task."
The next morning he was stiff and tired, but the sunshine made him feel
optimistic. Breakfast! he thought. He sat up, stretched himself, and gave
a huge yawn. "Chicken and game!" He jumped on top of a fence and looked
across the gardens. They lay before him: a lawn as precise as a living
room carpet, bordered with regiments of red flowers; then rusty objects
propped against a shed; then bedsheets flapping on a line. He jumped down,
nosed around. There, on the concrete path as it warmed up in the sunshine,
was his own smell from yesterday, faint but distinct!
Follow myself home, he thought. No problem.
But it was a problem.
Chasing the magpie, he had taken an alarmingly random course, zigzagging,
turning back on himself, often going in circles. In the night, other
animals had passed; other scents had overlaid his own. While it was a good
idea, the attempt to follow himself was doomed from the start. High old
brick walls, espaliered with fruit trees, blocked his path. Abundant crops
of nettles forced him to divert. He blundered into another cat--or rather
the insane face of another cat was thrust unexpectedly into his own,
screaming at him so loudly that he jumped in fear and ran off under some
bushes and came out disoriented twenty minutes later to find himself
trapped in a place that didn't even seem to be a garden. The spines of
dying foxgloves mopped and mowed against a tottering wooden fence. What
had once been an open space was now a jungle: fireweed seeding down to
ashes, a choke of brambles and old rose suckers bound together in the
dusty heat by convolvulus and grape ivy. The air was thick, still, and
oppressive, full of the sleepy drone of insects. Eventually he pushed his
way out. He was hot and tired and out of temper. The house in front of him
had blue shutters, peeling to show the gray wood beneath, and a blue door.
Not much else could be seen through the skeins of honeysuckle and wiry
climbing roses colonizing its pebble-dashed walls. Its windows were of
rippled glass, dim with dirt. Compressed between the wilderness and the
house, the remains of its garden--the patch of yellowed lawn on which he
stood, the beds overgrown with rubbery hostas, the tottering wooden shed
which had also at some point been painted blue--would soon be engulfed.
Tag sighed and sat down suddenly in the shade of some terra-cotta pots
full of dead geraniums. It was already noon, and he still hadn't eaten. He
crouched down, tucked his front paws neatly under him, and let his nose
rest on the ground. Not knowing what else to do, he slept. When he woke,
the magpie was perched on a broken pot in front of him.
"Raaark," it said "On your own then, Kit-e-Kat?"
"Don't call me that!" said Tag.
The magpie laughed. "Call yourself a cat?" it asked. It added
mysteriously, "I don't know why he bothers with you. If he could find them
on his own, he wouldn't." Then it put its head on one side, regarded him
with one beady eye, and said with measured nastiness, "Oh yes, you're on
your own now, Kit-e-Kat!"
Tag was enraged. He jumped up and rushed the magpie. "My name's Tag!" he
cried. "I am a cat, and they call me Tag, not Kit-e-Kat!"
The magpie only bobbed its head wickedly and took flight. It flapped with
a dreamy slowness up from the lawn and into the rowan tree. As it flew it
looked less like a bird than a series of brilliant sketches of one. For an
instant--while it was still rising but almost into the tree--it seemed to
wear its own wings like a black, shiny cloak. Then it perched, quickly
ruffled its feathers, and looked down at Tag, its head tilted on one side
to show a bright cruel eye.
"They call me One for Sorrow," it said. "And you won't forget me in a
Alone, thought Tag.
He tested this idea until sudden panic swept through him. He ran around
and around the lawn until he was tired again. He licked his fur in the
sunshine for ten minutes. He couldn't think what to do. He jumped up onto
a windowsill and rubbed both sides of his face on the window pane.
"Breakfast!" he demanded. But clearly it would not be feeding him today.
So he jumped down and tried the same with the back door. No luck. Clearly
no one would be feeding him today.
He had a new idea. He would feed himself.
Eat a bee, he thought. Eat more than one.
And he tore off excitedly across the lawn, the little bell on his collar
An hour later he had chased four houseflies, a blackbird, two sparrows,
and a leaf. He had caught one of the houseflies and the leaf. The leaf
proved to be unpalatable. No bees were about. All this effort made him
hungrier than before. He went back to the house and jumped up on the
"Yow!" he said.
Nothing. It was silent and empty in there.
He stalked a wren, which scolded him from a safe place inside a hedge. He
tried it on with two squirrels, who bobbed their tails at him and sped off
along the top of a board fence at a breakneck pace, vying with each other
for the lead and calling "Stuff you!" and "Stuff your nuts, mate!" as they
ran. Then he tried a thrush, which kept a lazy eye on him while it shelled
its breakfast--a yellow snail--against a stone, then rose up neatly as he
pounced, and with no fuss or fluster cleared his optimistic jaws by four
inches and left him clapping his front paws silently on empty air.
"Nice technique," said an interested voice behind him.
"Pretty stupid cat, though," answered another. "Anyone could have caught
Tag thought he recognized one of the voices, but he was too ashamed to
turn around and look. For the rest of that day, he ate flies. They were
easy to catch and, depending on what they had eaten recently, even tasted
good. In the middle of the afternoon he bullied some sparrows off half a
slice of buttered white bread two gardens along the row. Finally, he went
back to the place where he had argued with the thrush. There he caught
some snails. They didn't taste in the slightest bit good, but at least, he
thought, he was denying them to the thrush.
Toward evening it began to rain.
The rain came stealthily at first, a drop here and a drop there. It tapped
and popped on the leaves of the hostas, where it gathered as shiny
beads--each containing a tiny curved image of the world--that soon collapsed
into little short-lived rivulets. The snails, sensing the rain, opened
themselves up gratefully. Then, sensing Tag, they shut themselves away
again. There was a kind of hush around the sound of each raindrop.
Tag watched the snails and waited. A cat with a thick coat doesn't feel
the rain until too late. Suddenly it was pouring down on him, straight as
a stair rod, cold and penetrating as a needle. He was surprised and
disgusted to find himself soaked. His skin twitched. He stretched and
stood up. He shook out first one front paw, then the other. He retreated
to the back doorstep.
A gust of wind shook the shrubbery and blew the rain across the garden in
swirls, right into his shelter. He sat there grimly for a bit, trying to
lick the damp off his fur, fluffing up, blinking, shaking himself, licking
again. But in the end he had to admit that he was just as wet there as he
would have been in the middle of the lawn.
I hate rain, he thought.
He dashed out into the downpour to try the windowsill.
He found a dry patch in the lee of the terra-cotta pots. The wind changed
and blew the rain into his face.
He tried sitting under the trees.
Soon it was coming dark. "Stop raining now," said Tag. Every time he
changed position he got wetter. He was hungry again, and cold. But if he
scampered about to keep warm he felt tired very suddenly. He ordered the
rain, "Leave me alone, now." The rain didn't listen. The garden didn't
listen. The wind was like a live thing. It was always blowing from behind
him, ruffling his fur up the wrong way to find and chill any part of him
that still had any warmth left. He turned around and tried to bite the
harder gusts. He ran blindly about or simply sat, becoming more and more
bedraggled. Suddenly he realized that he was sitting by the door of the
Inside, he thought.
He hooked his paw around the bottom of the door and pulled hard. It
wouldn't move. Open! he heard himself think. Open, now! He hooked again
and pulled harder. This made him so weary he needed to sit down; but after
a moment he was cold again and had to force himself to get up.
Hook. Pull. No good.
"Come on, Tag," he encouraged himself. "Come on!"
Hook. Pull. The door scraped open an inch. Then two.
That's enough! thought Tag.
For some minutes he was too worn out to do anything but sit in front of
the door with his head down, looking at nothing. Then he pushed his face
cautiously into the gap, and the rest of him, bedraggled and shivering,
seemed to follow of its own accord.
It rained. Days and nights came and went, and still no one summoned him
for "the task." The house remained empty and the lawn filled with puddles.
Then the last leaves fell from the trees, and the nights drew in tight,
like a collar around a young cat's neck. Smoke hung low over the gardens
in the late afternoon; the days began with thick mists. Winter ushered
itself in, quietly and without fuss, in the voice of the roosting crows,
the raw chill in the evening air. Tag lived in the shed, and soon became
familiar with its pungent smells
of ancient sacks and insecticides, spiderwebs and mice. He never caught a
mouse there, but it was reassuring to think that one day he might. If it
was not warm, the shed was at least dry. The shed saved him.
When he felt strong, he ranged up and down the gardens, three or four
houses in every direction. He ate flies. He ate earthworms. He ate
anything that could be caught without a great expenditure of energy. He
got up in the dawn to beat the squirrels to the scraps of bread and lard
and meat that other cats' dulls put out for the birds. He became thin and
quick but easier and easier to tire. He avoided confrontations. Seen in
the distance in the gardens at sunrise on a cold morning, he was like a
white ghost, a twist of breath in the frost. Close to, his silver coat was
tangled and muddy and out of condition.
Some days it was all he could do to find the energy to crouch at a puddle
and lap up rainwater, then make his way back to the shed. Eat something
tomorrow, he would think; and then after a confused doze get up again in
the belief that tomorrow had already come. Which in a way it had.
He never left the gardens. If he thought about his life, he thought that
this was the way he would live it now. Tiredness, and the comforting sound
of the rain on the roof of the shed.
Then one night everything changed again.
Excerpted from The Wild Road by Gabriel King. . Excerpted by permission of Del Rey, a division of Random House LLC. All rights reserved. No part of this excerpt may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in writing from the publisher.