Meet Hola. She's a nightmare. But she’s gorgeous.
Hola may be the most beautiful Bernese mountain dog in the world, but she's never been trained, so it's not her fault if she tackles strangers, chews on furniture, and runs after buses. That honor falls to Marty, Hola's supposed master, who is a high-functioning alcoholic. A TV writer turned management consultant, Marty's in debt and out of shape; he's about to lose his job, and his wife, too, if he can't get his life--and his dog--under control. Desperately trying to save his marriage, Marty throws himself headlong into the world of competitive dog training. Unfortunately, he knows even less than Hola, the only dog ever to be expelled from her puppy preschool twice.
Entering the Ring
“Is it just me,” I ask my ninety-pound copilot, framed in the rearview mirror like a hairy Warhol Marilyn, “or is everyone losing their minds?”
I’m sorry to say, she seems to be sorry to say, it’s just you.
“Did we miss our turn? I can’t see the signs.”
And I, she says, can’t read.
Now I will advise that when you’re going somewhere that is not so easy to get to, don’t let me drive.
There are few guarantees in life like the one I will make to you now: you will get lost. Very lost. So far from your destination you’ll be looking out the window as darkness descends, watching street signs change into another language. During my days as the world’s most ungrateful management consultant, I tooled around London in a rented Ford Fiesta with one of the ﬁrm’s partners, who spun on me after a string of boneheaded turns and said, “Who was it that hired you again?”
Losing her religion, my copilot—a ﬁve-year-old Bernese mountain dog named Hola—stretches herself out on the backseat of our alarmingly small car and moans softly, serenely, like a butterﬂy being sawn in half by wind.
“You’re not helping,” I say to her, as the Sprain Brook Park way is glazed with a silver coat of fear.
Neither are you. Did you bring any cheese?
“If you’re driving,” says the guy on 1010 WINS news radio, “think about getting off the road. We have a severe weather warning. It’s going to get ugly out there.”
Not as ugly as White Plains, New York.
A gray blanket stuffed with old malls, it claims to be thirty minutes north of Manhattan. Ninety minutes after setting out, Hola and I ﬁnally slide into the parking lot of the Port Chester Obedience Training Club, where we’re scheduled to take the Canine Good Citizen test ten minutes ago.
The PCOTC is a legendary facility that relocated from Port Chester to an industrial district in White Plains without changing its name. It readies little woofers and their handlers for everything from crate training to all-breed shows, and ﬁve years earlier, Hola had the distinction of being the only dog in her puppy kindergarten class to be invited to leave. Twice.
Let it not be said that my dog is not a legend in the canine obedience world.
She’s a beautiful, tricolored purebred dog; a spectacularly ﬂuffy, optimistic creature with true Broadway spirit and an explosive commitment to now.
I keep expecting her to stand up on her hind paws to make her Tony acceptance speech:
“I remember when I was a little puppy, lying on my doggie bed watching Beethoven’s 3rd on DVD and thinking, ‘I can do that!’ . . .”
And I mean no disrespect to her when I say that all things considered, taking the long view and giving her the full beneﬁt of the doubt, she was a horrible bitch.
Storm clouds morph from a hazy gray to an oily, ominous rust as the volume of snow per square inch of air throttles up.
“Hola, come!” I say, holding open the car’s back door.
Because I have enough cut-up raw liver in my snow jacket pocket to open a meat market, she jumps out.
I saddle her into her little harness, lock the car, check that I have her dog license, rabies tag, hairbrush, and—the critical item—her complete attention. Then I tuck myself into classic dog handler’s heeling position, left arm bent with my hand on my sacral third chakra, body erect and as still as the truth.
Stepping off on my left foot, cuing Hola to heel, I start toward our destiny.
Miraculously, she follows.
Step, step. Head up. Sky down. My jeans feeling loose on my stress-addled torso, I can ﬁnally exhale.
We skate the iron ramp, negotiate past a boxer puppy in the outer swing doors, and I ask Hola to sit in front of the second set of doors so I can precede her.
Always lead, you see: follow a dog and you follow a doubt.
“Hola, sit.” Remember: name ﬁrst, command second.
I say: “Grrr.”
Aversive sound, meaning: Seriously, sit.
As I pull the door open, seeing the ring set up for the test, with the white PVC accordion gates, the ofﬁcial note takers and stewards, the distracter dog for the dreaded item #8 (reaction to another dog), a dozen or so of our training buddies nervously clamped to the walls watching the empty ring, the evaluator pacing the expanse of Mity-Lite polymer matting looking for stray treats left over from Family Manners class, the industrial warehouse rooﬁng and the rusted crates and agility equipment strewn like an A-frame junkyard in the far ring, the beautiful goldens and Labs and Havanese stress-smiling in a united chorus of Hello, world!—well, we have only one thought, Hola and me.
We are home.
Release word: “Okay.”
She trails me into the club.
What we’re doing here is a canine mystery.
If you’d told me one year earlier that the two of us could trot into Port Chester as legitimate contenders for an American Kennel Club–sanctioned obedience certiﬁcation—Canine Good Citizen—I’d have thought you had rolled your brain in catnip and set it on ﬁre.
Begun in 1989, the CGC is a test of training and temperament; to pass, a dog has to be able to sit quietly for petting and around other dogs, tolerate handling and distractions, walk on a loose lead through a crowd, prove it knows basic commands such as sit, down, stay, and come, and endure a few minutes’ separation from its owner without obvious distress.
Some dogs can pass it after a couple of classes and a pep talk.
Then there is Hola.
Everybody knew what was wrong with my dog.
I could take her anywhere, and she particularly enjoyed the works of Pixar. Obeying my whispered commands was like breathing to her, and at times I entertained the idea she could actually read my mind. Her sits were so straight you could level a cabinet with them, her down-stays so still they bordered on a trance. Sometimes I’d put her into a stay, go and have a medical procedure, visit my mother in West Virginia, and she’d still be there when I got back from the airport, patiently awaiting my release: “Okay! Good girl.”
Truth was, just one year ago, Hola had never met a word she could recognize, including her name. Friends and strangers alike were greeted with a full-body slam that was just this side of actionable. The only invitation needed was a smile, a pulse, or a Baby Bjorn. My apartment was a wasteland of gnawed dados and wee wee–stained chintz. Walks were a haphazard dance of death as she lunged at any passing Subway wrapper, unleashed Pomeranian, or Crip.
“She doesn’t mean to be bad,” said one of the trainers my wife and I consulted during Hola’s ﬁrst few years on earth. “She’s just kind of high-strung.”
There are other words for what she was.
“Why is she always running around and jumping on people and not listening?” I asked the guy, who handled K-9 police dogs.
“That’s easy,” he said. “You don’t know anything about dogs.”
We’d had so much hope, my wife, Gloria, and I. It still stings me to remember with what prematernal optimism we read Jean Donaldson and Karen Pryor and Sharon Chesnutt Smith’s The New Bernese Mountain Dog, scouring hardware stores for these strange things called baby gates. She mail-ordered a Bernese-ready version of what dog people call a crate—it’s a cage—and I almost had a petit mal. It was bigger than our Toyota Echo.
Dreams die hard, and so did this one. Puppies are a pain at any price, and we marked up a lot to exuberance. Certainly she wasn’t shy. Just ask our neighbors. Many times she helped them with their groceries and tossed in a prostate exam on the house. Years passed and passed again.
At a certain point, without announcing it even to ourselves, we gave up. I gave up. We’d had our idea of what a pet should be and had been baited and switched. We’d been had by the dogs of the gods or vice versa. She was housebroken; she seemed happy; she didn’t actually bite people, with a single exception.
What I know now is that settling for a dog who is housebroken and doesn’t draw blood is like settling for a child who can talk.
And I might as well admit the exception was my wife.
Gradually—very gradually—as we stopped working with Hola, she turned into a beast. There are reasonable people who would have euthanized her for the way she treated Gloria, and to those people I have no response.
“She’s a wild one, dude,” said another of the trainers we visited to deal with this new reign of terror—the occasional growling, the passing nips, the light bruising and marks on my wife’s arms and legs that more than once had a predictable result.
“How’d that happen?” asked some woman at Ann Taylor or at the Whole Foods where Gloria worked for a year as a cook.
“My dog did it.”
A look of deep, sisterly karma. “It’s okay,” they’d whisper. “You don’t have to lie for him anymore. There are people who can help you.”
“Really, it’s my dog. She’s a menace.”
“Of course it is, girlfriend. Of course it is.”
Of course it’s the man. And were they so wrong? Where was the man, after all?
So I am being sincere when I say I don’t lay blame for what Gloria decided to do next. She saved both of our lives—mine and the dog’s—after all.
She left us.
Gloria is a wiry, birdlike woman with bobbed brown hair, a sharp nose, and milk-bottle glasses; she’s usually smiling slightly as though eavesdropping on a funny conversation. Her eyes are a serious blue that almost glows, and her skin is pale and buttery, her features stacked together with such unusual symmetry that the ﬁrst thing my male friends usually said to me after meeting her was: “Wow.”
A professional charmer, she’s reduced vanloads of folk-song fans in Manhattan’s East Village to tears with her gorgeous voice, tart lyrics, and improvised monologues. The one about the death of Frank Sinatra was a classic I wish I’d committed to tape. She has a master’s in music theory and can recognize any celebrity, no matter how obscure, by their voice.
People love her, and those who do not simply haven’t met her yet. She is utterly uncontroversial. Coincidentally, she’s suffered a few dog years herself. She’d decided to go to cooking school, worked for a while, and then quit because the career was too dangerous and poorly paid.
Inspired by the old Schoolhouse Rock series, she started writing one-minute songs about cooking techniques—“Read the Recipe All the Way Through”; “Shock-Shock-Shock the Vegetables,” in the style of the Ramones; the ribald “Pull Wiggle Wiggle,” a pseudo-gospel song about how to bone a ﬁsh—and set them to animated videos featuring a trio of musical chefs named Do, Re, and Mi.
Chefdoremi.com is her message to the world, which so far is considering its response.
I still believe she is some kind of genius, but she has reservations.
And, like many Gen Xers, we’d sort of forgotten to have children until it was probably too late.
As snow continues to swallow the obedience club, I hand back the CGC forms in triplicate. AKC registration number—yes. Spayed—yes. Age—almost six now, an old lady in Bernese mountain dog time.
“You’ll be second,” says the steward. “Wait over at the side, please.”
Let’s go into the corner, Hola seems to say, and remind me what I’m supposed to do here. Preferably using a food lure.
As I’m walking backward monitoring Hola’s stay, I scan the ring where the ﬁrst team is doing item #7, “Coming when called.”
The dog half of the pair is a rather sluggish toy poodle who meanders back to her handler like she’s waist-deep in canola oil.
“Did you see that, Hola?” I whisper. “No pizzazz at all.”
That poodle lacks heart, she agrees. She has no business out there on the mat.
For the ﬁrst ten years of my marriage, after a month locked in a rehab I don’t remember checking into, I’d been abstinent from alcohol.
Stop me if you’ve heard this story before.
Burned out as a TV writer, I went back to business school and got a job as a management consultant, working out of hotel rooms in cities far, far away, and one night I went into the mini-bar for a Diet Pepsi and thought, Well, nothing livens up a Diet Pepsi like some Captain Morgan, correct?
So I took out the bottle and unscrewed the cap.
I see now the difference between sobriety and abstinence is like the difference between marriage and pornography. It’s apples and rotary saws.
To her credit, Gloria stayed with me through my bottom, stayed with Hola and me as we began our own Incredible Journey of mutual rehabilitation, then went off on a journey of her own.
To this day, I understand.
In the words of a country song she wrote, “You’re Leavin’ Me, You Lucky Dog (If I Was You I’d Leave Me Too).”
Hola and I trotted on alone: to a terrifying dog camp in the Green Mountains of Virginia, a gallery of trainers and priests, all-breed shows, and obedience demonstrations, meeting wonderful people along the way—the top Bernese mountain dog breeder, the national canine obedience champion, the world’s best dog writer, even the head of the CGC program herself.
It doesn’t take an advanced degree in animal behavior to see that I traded an obsession with alcohol for an obsession with dog training.
But looking back, I like to give our adventure a more romantic spin: we were trying to get Gloria back. Somehow I thought succeeding in the impossible task of winning our four-legged demon child a Canine Good Citizen rating would make us both family friendly again.
To be fair, Gloria didn’t know this; even I didn’t know this in the beginning.
But I’m sure that Hola did.
We’re practicing our automatic sits as the steward comes up to us from the judge’s table.
She’s a large, older woman in an L.L. Bean red ﬂannel shirt, and her breath spreads out in front of her like a paint roller. Her wide face is a map of White Plains: gray, ﬂat, and functional.
“Are you Hola?” she asks me.
“Here for the CGC, right? Not Therapy Dog?”
“You’re up next. Use the buckle collar. Leave the treats outside the ring. Are you ready?”
I peer down at my sidekick, whose head is cocked to the left quizzically in a look that says life is a punch line, so you’d better be joking.
“Are we ready, girlfriend?”
Are you kidding me? she says, breaking her sit on my cue. I was BORN ready!
So we enter the ring . . .
Excerpted from Bad Dog by Martin Kihn. Copyright © 2011 by Martin Kihn. Excerpted by permission of Vintage, a division of Random House LLC. All rights reserved. No part of this excerpt may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in writing from the publisher.
What is Bad Dog (A Love Story) about?
It’s a story about a man and a dog whose lives are both totally out of control. I’m secretly drinking, and my dog Hola is basically attacking my wife. We’re living in Manhattan, my career is going nowhere—your basic alcoholic situation. Understandably, at a certain point my wife decides she’s had it and leaves town. That’s my bottom. Thank God I manage to get help to stop drinking and decide to take Hola’s training seriously. Most of the book is the story of how, step by step, Hola and I train each other to become responsible citizens. My goal was to get my wife back. Hola’s goal was to earn her Canine Good Citizen award from the American Kennel Club. There won’t be a dry eye in the kennel.
What inspired you to write the book?
It was an amazing moment, actually. I can still remember it vividly. I was driving Hola around pretty aimlessly one day not knowing how I was going to get my life together, and I ran across an event in Madison Square Park in Manhattan called Responsible Dog Ownership Day. Unbelievable. We went and it was there I found out about the Canine Good Citizen award. It’s basically a ten-step test of good manners, but you really need a well-trained dog to pass. That became our goal: to pass that test. I remember getting tears in my eyes thinking how impossible it seemed. The book grew out of that moment. It became the story of our journey toward the Canine Good Citizen.
Does it have a happy ending?
Of course it does. In fact, that was my intention from the beginning—to write a happy dog book. All the dog stories I’d been reading were basically tragedies in one way or another. I was determined to make this one funny and optimistic.
Is it a true story?
Yes. Everything in the book happened. Because it’s about alcoholism, and I take the tradition of anonymity seriously, I changed a lot of names and descriptions. But this is a memoir about Hola’s and my life together.
What one thing do you want people to take away from the book?
Set goals—goals that seem impossible. I don’t mean goals that are impossible. Hola and I are never going to get asked to compete in the National Obedience Invitational. But focusing on the Canine Good Citizen helped us get organized. We knew what we needed to do, and got going. The thing about goals you think in your gut “I can’t do this”—well, when you actually do, the world becomes a better place. It opens up.
You describe your alcoholism and recovery. Was that a difficult topic to write about?
Only in the sense that people who know me would be reading it, and I worried how they would react. But that’s a common problem with memoirs. I just had to write it totally uncensored and hope for the best. Talking about alcoholism itself isn’t hard for us recovery types. It’s what we do in our meetings every day.
You say your Bernese mountain dog, Hola, helped you stop drinking. How?
She helped me to get less selfish. It was a tremendous gift, actually. Her being such a terrible dog was a gift. Focusing on another living being all those months, supposedly to fix her problems, let me get outside of my own head. And Hola is just really great company. It’s impossible to be lonely with her in the house—she has so much enthusiasm for life. It’s infectious. Of course, in the end I realized she wasn’t a bad dog at all. I was a bad owner.
Hola really is the star of the book. What is she like?
She’s a beautiful, tri-colored Bernese mountain dog. About eighty pounds now, so a smaller Bernese. She stops traffic—literally, people stop and get out of their cars to look at her. She loves people. She’s never been a mean dog, just badly-trained by moi and my wife. Like I said, her joy is infectious. A friend of mine once said, “Hola is the Bill Clinton of dogs.” The word is charisma.
You try a lot of different dog training methods. Which one worked the best?
We did them all. We started at a club out in White Plains that did all positive training, mostly through treats. My problem with Hola was that she’d do anything for a treat, but if I didn’t have one she wouldn’t obey at all. We went to a very famous week-long camp in Virginia, where we were the worst team there. Their method didn’t involve treats but focused on the animal’s basic “drives.” It was too abstract for me. We didn’t make real progress until I found a trainer in New York who practiced a dominance-based approach. Hola needed a leader, and I wasn’t stepping up.
How did Hola react to you being more assertive?
She’s a dog, not a person. Dogs don’t take this kind of thing the way we do. Basically, we had some adjustment issues as she figured out things were changing in our relationship. But she’s fine being number two. Most dogs are. She just needed me to be a whole lot more competent as number one. She needed to trust me to be consistent and clear. It was a lot easier than I thought it would be.
You used to write for “Pop-Up Video” in the 1990’s. What was that like?
Hardest job I’ve ever had—and I’ve been a management consultant! I was head writer for the show for a few years before business school. It was a lot of research. I got to talk to stars I’d admired from the 1980’s—Deborah Harry, Billy Squier. Video directors. It was a cool job, but it couldn’t last forever.
Both your previous memoirs were sold to Hollywood. What’s happening with them?
My first book was an exposé about management consultants called House of Lies, and it was recently filmed as a pilot for Showtime with Don Cheadle playing me. Kristen Bell is in it. If it gets picked up, it should air early next year. My second book A$$hole sold to Warner Brothers and is still “in development,” as they say.
You recently moved from New York City to Minneapolis. Why?
My wife is from Minneapolis. She’d been pressuring me for years to move back here. One thing I’ve noticed since we got here is that Minneapolis is full of married guys whose wives suggested they move back from wherever they were living. It’s a town of happily imported men.
How do Hola and your wife Gloria like their new hometown?
They love it. Hola is a cold weather dog—a Swiss mountain breed. She was made for this place. My wife has her family, her sister just across the street. Every day is like a high school reunion for her. After what I put her through, packing up Hola and the cat and driving out here was the least I could do. And I’m surprised how much I like it. Turns out it’s a fabulous, friendly place to live.
From the Hardcover edition.