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My father in the night shuffling from room to room
on an obscure mission through the hallway.
Help me, spirits, to penetrate his dream
and ease his restless passage.
Lay back the darkness for a salesman
who could charm everything but the shadows,
an immigrant who stands on the threshold
of a vast night
without his walker or his cane
and cannot remember what he meant to say,
though his right arm is raised, as if in prophecy,
while his left shakes uselessly in warning.
My father in the night shuffling from room to room
is no longer a father or a husband or a son,
but a boy standing on the edge of a forest
listening to the distant cry of wolves,
to wild dogs,
to primitive wingbeats shuddering in the treetops.

I am so small walking on the beach
at night under the widening sky.
The wet sand quickens beneath my feet
and the waves thunder against the shore.
I am moving away from the boardwalk
with its colorful streamers of people
and the hotels with their blinking lights.
The wind sighs for hundreds of miles.
I am disappearing so far into the dark
I have vanished from sight.
I am a tiny seashell
that has secretly drifted ashore
and carries the sound of the ocean
surging through its body.
I am so small now no one can see me.
How can I be filled with such a vast love?

It was like a white sail in the early morning
It was like a tremulous wind calming itself
After a night on the thunderous sea
The exhausted lightning lay down on its side
And slept on a bed of cumulous sheets
She came out of the mountains
And surrendered to the expansiveness of a plain
She underlined a text in Isaiah:
Make level in the desert
A highway for our God
Every valley shall be exalted
And every mountain and hill shall be made low
The mountain grew tired of striving upward
And longed to flatten its ragged peaks
The nostalgia of a cathedral for the open plain
The nostalgia of a soprano for plainsong
I know a woman who slept on a cot
And sailed over the abyss on a wooden plank
She looked as far as the eye can see
But the eye is a circlepoor pupil
And the universe curved
It was like a pause on the Bridge of Sighs
An instant before the storm
Or the moment afterward
My friend listened to Gregorian chants
On the car radio as he raced down
A two-lane highway in southern France
I remember riding a bicycle very fast
On a country road where the yellow line
Quivered ever so slightly in the sun
The faint tremor in my father's hand
When he signed his name after the stroke
The beauty of an imperfection
An almost empty canvas turned on its side
A zip that forever changed its mind
From its first pointed stroke
To its last brush with meaning
The glow of the line was spiritual
How the childlike pencil went for a walk
And came home skipping
It was like lying down at dusk to rest
On the cool pavement under the car
After a blistering day in the desert
The beaded evanescence of the summer heat
The horizon was a glimmering blue band
A luminous streamer in the distance
I recited, Brightness falls from the air
And the line suddenly whisked me away
No chapel is more breathtaking
Than the one that has been retrieved
On the horizon of memory
She remembered the stillness of a pool
Before the swimmers entered the water
And the colorful ropes dividing the lanes
Each swimmer was a scar in the blue mist
Invisible bird,
Whistle me up from the dark on a bright branch
It's not the low murmur of your voice
Almost breaking over the phone
But the thin wire of grief
The hum of joy that connects us
Sacred dream of geometry,
Ruler and protractor, temper my anguish,
Untrouble my mind
Heartbeat, steady my hand
Each year she crossed a line
Through the front page of a fresh diary
And vowed to live above the line
She would not line up with others
She would align herself with the simple truth
She erased every line in her notebook but one
Farewell to the aspirations of the vertical
The ecstasies of the diagonal
The suffering cross
Someone left a prayer book open in the rain
And the printed lines blurred
Ink smudged our fingers when we prayed
Let every line be its own revelation
The line in the painting was surrounded by light
The light in the painting held its breath
On the threshold of a discovery
If only she could picture
The boundlessness of God drawing
An invisible thread through the starry spaces
If only she could paint
The horizon without limits
A horizontal line is a pilgrimage
A segment of devotion wrested from time
An infinitely gentle mark on a blank page
The stripe remains after everything else is gone
It is a wisp of praise with a human hand
It is singing on a bare canvas
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